New Song - Far Away (Not Wanted)

Far Away (Not Wanted)

Here we go again
I'm stuck in this same old story
I can't believe that no one even wants to hold me

I may just lie here
So I can die alone
I may just lie here
And no one cares I'm gone

So far away
So far away
I'm not wanted here
not wanted anywhere
so I'll go away, so far away

They all just want to be friends
Picked someone else in the end
I'll never get a chance at true romance

I may just jump inside
So I can fade and die
I may just jump inside
Can't save me with your lies

So far away
So far away
I'm not wanted here
not wanted anywhere
so I'll go away, so far away

I can't take this any longer...
I can't take this anymore...
Fully loaded, pull the trigger
or grip the blade and pull it slow...

So far away
So far away
I'm not wanted here
not wanted anywhere
so I'll go away, so far away

New Song - Simple Solitude

Note: Don't look for this song to be on the album.
Simple Solitude

I feel my heart fall apart in my hands
There is no one that is searching for me
and I feel that there is something, somewhere
and it's keeping me alone forever.

I want someone to hold
I want someone to love me, like the way I love them
And I feel that everything that I heard bout love
Just doesn't apply to me

I see all of my friends, with smiles on their faces
happy with their mates,
And even all the single ones, always seem to have some fun
But I'm still alone and isolated

I want someone to hold
I want someone to love me, like the way I love them
And I feel that everything that I heard bout love
Just doesn't apply to me

And so now I sit on the edge of the roof
I know that no one will try to save me from myself
And all alone I spent my life
So now I end it in simple solitude

Alone, it ends in simple solitude.

Cover Song - Garbage's "You Look So Fine"

I've decided to do a cover song. It's from one of my favorite 90's groups, Garbage, and it's a song that I have truly felt in recent time, I'm dedicating this to a friend of mine.

You Look So Fine (originally done by Garbage, written by Shirley Manson & Butch Vig)

You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over

It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over

I'm not like all the other guys
I can't take it like the other guys
I won't break it like the other guys
That you used to know.....
You look so fine

Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you

I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me

You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave him behind
If you want to show me

I'm not like all the other guys
I won't take it like the other guys
I won't break it like the other guys
That you used to know.....

You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over

New Song - Should Be

You keep me on a string,
with every word you say,
you hang me onto it,
I don't know when to quit.

And when we started talking
You knew just all about me
But you kept it all inside
Knew I was mesmerized, and

I think you like it when i'm freaking out about you.
And i don't what it is but I just cant be without you.

Ackward, Passive, It's just so reactive
I know it will not grow, but sho nuff wont let it go
I can't believe it, You can't see it
It should be, but it won't.

You know you got me hooked
but wont let me move around
I wish you would tie me up
But you just tied me down

We talked all day and night
Fell asleep at sunlight
Just when I thought I won
Got shot down by the gun, and

I think you like it when I'm crazy about you
And I don't what it is that you have put me through

Nervous, Tension, You've made a great impression
I know it will not grow, but sho nuff wont let it go
I can't believe it. You can't see it
It should be, but it won't.

It should be, still could be, But I know that it wont be
It should be, still could be, But I already know
It should be, would like to be, it really, really could be
It should be, still could be
It should be, but it won't...........

New Song - Madly, Arousing, Ravishing, Intriguing, Sexy, Sincere, Amazing

Madly Arousing Ravishing Intreguing Sexy Sincere Amazing.

I said just what I ment
I said just what I felt
I said everything that my heart held

You said you would need some time
You said you might change your mind
And I said that's fine

But deep inside, well it hurts so bad
I tried at first to hide it
Now, I cant stop the crying

I am here and I'm so alone
Its not your fault
Because I should have known, that

True love never just happens
and real love never just falls apart

I wish I could have changed your mind
and I wish I could say, that I will be just fine

But all i know is that you've made your mind
But I don't know if I'll make the end of the line.

NEW!!! Song - So Real

This song I started and finished in a span of 10, long, hard, stressful, drunken, painful, thought-provoking, tear-jerking, hours. It's called "So Real"

"So Real"

I didn't plan on this to happen
But it did anyway
I never thought that it was anything
But then you said just what was on my mind
How did you know this the entire time

And then you said just what you feel
And what we feel, seems so real
Why would you deny what's inside
To leave it alone and let it die
I want our thoughts to become real, so real

I didn't give it too much thought
Until I got home
And then I realised
I can't let it go
You spin around in my head
like a new record
And that's when you saw
That I wrote you a letter
And then you said just what you feel

And what we feel, seems so real
Why would you deny what's inside
To leave it alone and let it die
I want our thoughts to become real, so real

So what if we gave it a chance
I can try to start believing
Why can't we work this out
Everything happens for a reason

And then you said just what you feel
And what we feel, seems so real
Why would you deny what's inside
To leave it alone and let it die
I want our thoughts to become real, so real

So real
So real
I want this to be real
So real
So real
Our thoughts can be so real

Poem - The Truth (Basspoetry #2)

This is a song I wrote about 3 weeks ago on vacation, which I recently turned into a poem. It's got a long title, but I'll usually refer to it as just The Truth.

The Truth (I knew what that look ment the entire time)

I don't know what to say when I'm around you
I'm just blown away by your beauty
I am always amazed because everything you say
Makes me smile or laugh

Ever since I layed my eyes on you
You've been crawling 'round inside my head
And everytime you glance at me
I wanted to tell you how it really feels
To want you to be with me

My heart is burning with new emotions
I don't know if you feel the same way
I'm too nervous to ask you
All I can do is flip a coin and make a wish.

Ever since I layed my eyes on you
You've been crawling 'round inside my head
And everytime you glance at me
I wanted to tell you how it really feels
To want you to be with me

Song - Things Never Change (Won't See Me Again)

This is a song I wrote a few months ago, and its loosly based on 2 previous songs that I wrote years ago.

Things Never Change (Won't See Me Again)

Just when I started
to believe in you again
You show your true side to me
All the pain that I let go
The pain that made me feel so cold
You just put that back into me

But I can walk away this time
I wont let you get inside me now
And I won't have to hide my true feelings
Because you won't be seeing me again

What the hell was I thinking
Like this shit had changed
I was a fool once for you, but never again
cause that was way in the past
and they were right when they say
things never change

But I can walk away this time
I wont let you get inside me now
And I won't have to my true feelings
Because you won't be seeing me again

And all this pain I felt inside
I thought that I was gonna die
And all this pain, all this pain
You fucking gave it back to me

But I can walk away this time
I wont let you get inside me now
And I won't have to my true feelings
Because you won't be seeing me again

Poem - I Want You (Basspoetry #1)

This is a poem that I wrote last year. Its not about anyone in particular, but just a general feeling that a person has about someone they admire and love.

the feeling that I get when I look in your eyes and here the cars fly by and feel the lake breeze blow past me. I just get lost the in dark sea of love and tenderness and hot passion that just cant be cooled down,and the waves of your long brown hair dance along the wind, swaying to the beat of my heart, It just makes me feel like I have never felt before,but always want to. I can see your beautiful personality from hundreds of miles away and the sexy shell that holds it together makes it that much sweeter. And I know we're miles away but It feels closer than that and it can only get closer. You drive me crazy in the best way because I cant stop thinking about you, dreaming about you, for we can spends seconds and minutes together and make it seem like hours and days, and simple words are turned into complex melodies that resonate from your angelic voice to my ears and re-routed straight to my heart and recorded deep in my soul, and what I'm trying to say is I don't know if this is forever or a filng but I do know from my soul...........
I WANT YOU.

Song - Tears

This is a song I wrote about 5 years ago on how having a crush on someone can lead to dark, suicidal thoughts.

Tears

I just dont understand
why you wont respond to me
I am only trying to be the one
that I thought you were looking for
you just lied and gave excuses
and I laid my heart out for you
and as I walk, these tears drip away
but you dont see the pain that I feel

So here I sit alone in my room
The darkness of the empty spaces
I dont care how it feels around here
All that mattered is nothing to me
I want to sleep and never wake up
I just dont want to feel this real
and as I sit, these tears drip away
but you dont feel the pain that I hear

I just wanted to be with you
I just wanted to be...
I just wanted to be with you
but now I sit in a pool of my own tears

I just wanted to be with you
I just wanted to be...
I just wanted to be with you
now lifeless in a pool of my own...

Song - Been Through (In Your Blood)

Here's a song I wrote about a person I liked a long time ago, and when I got to see her years later, These were the thoughts that kinda ran through my brain before I saw her.

Been Through (In Your Blood)

Yesterday, you call me all these names
And I just let you spew your hate
But now that things have changed, I fire back
with the pain that you made me feel

And when all is said and done, You'll....

Just see what I have been through
And feel what I have been through now
Just hear what I have been through
And I'll leave you sitting, In your own blood.

I saw the letter that you wrote me
You have said that you have changed
You said "You were wrong and I was right"
But I was left with so many sleepless nights

And when all is said and done, You'll see what I've...

Just see what I have been through
And feel what I have been through
Just hear what I have been through
And I'll leave you sitting, In your own blood

SOLO

Just see what I have been through
And feel what I have been through
Just hear what I have been through
And I'll leave you sitting, In your own blood.

I'll leave you in your blood
I'll leave you in your blood
I'll leave you in your blood
For all the hate that you have left me.

Welcome to the ALL New Alex's Music Journal

Hey Everyone

Well, in the winding months of my Vacation (since May 20th, 2007) I have been working on lots of music. And after lots of writing, re-writing, editing, and playing, I am narrowing down my pile of lyrics and riffs and completing songs. The lyrics that will be posted all have music written for them (However my laptop does not have solid recording tecnology, but I am working on getting the music on here) So stay typed and I'll be posting plenty of stuff on here in the coming weeks.

Later
aX